Summary. [30 Dec 2009|07:25am] ehh_soso ( Twenty Zero 9. ) 2009 taught me that life is too short and people come and fade away and time eases the pain but never really diminishes it. Happy 2010. post comment

Merry what? [24 Dec 2009|09:13pm] ehh_soso I've had so much anxiety the past few days for some reason. I'm not sure where this is all sprouting fun because I should be the least anxious out of any part of the year at this time. Eh. You know...it didn't really bother me that much that I'm not with my family during "the holidays"...I'm actually content being completely alone right now. Life can be so exhausting with so many people entering and exiting it on a daily basis...I've just grown to become a huge fan of my alone time, my isolation. I'd actually prefer it over hanging out with friends nowadays. Sad right? I'm just so tired of starting new relationships with people that are just going to float on the surface of my life and never really have an impact. It seems meaningless and like a waste of time. The past few days have been weird for some reason...besides my overworked sense of anxiety I keep being entirely too nostalgic of all of the old traditions, routines, etc that used to occur in my household growing up. I really miss waking up in my bedroom weekend mornings and having breakfast with my mom and dad. It's sad that as life progresses, families grow apart. It's sad that as a teenager you take everything, especially your parents, for granted. I regret so much of when I was a teenager. I feel like I was so disrespectful and unappreciative of everything I had. If I had known this is what my life would be like down the road, I would NOT have been that stupid little bitch I used to be. I feel guilty for this every single fucking day. And now...now I feel incredibly helpless. My mom is the most depressed I have ever seen her. I don't even know who she is anymore. She cries all the time and is constantly victimizing herself and telling me and my sisters we are selfish and relying on us to make her happy. I am the kind of person that needs to have complete control over everything around me and to not have control over this situation and no fucking clue what to do, it sucks. It kills me. If I had all the money in the world I would give my mom everything she ever wanted. Life is really such a bitch. I'm done. -Leron 1 comment|post comment

Places I feel like I should see come graduation: [23 Dec 2009|10:14am] ehh_soso Within U.S.: - Colorado - San Francisco - Philly - Seattle - Portland - Hawaii Etc: - Thailand - Australia - Brazil (but I could also save this for 2014 World Cup!) - The rest of the fucking world. 4 comments|post comment

fucka you. (not you) [21 Dec 2009|10:27pm] ehh_soso Dear Jan, I love you and I hate that I have gone a few days without speaking to you because you are on a cruise. I'm sorry I am a boy-crazed individual and fall for the slightest flirtation from an attractive man...but know that you will always be the one I choose. I can't handle not being able to snuggle up in bed with you. Please stop going on cruises where we cannot communicate for a week +. Love you always, Leron I'm leaving NYC tomorrow. Wah. =[ -Leron 1 comment|post comment

I need advice. [20 Dec 2009|06:28pm] ehh_soso ( iphone uploads. ) This was my first time ever experiencing a snowfall like this. Quite enjoyable but also very inconvenient. The best part was the cab ride home where after I politely (not) kicked the 31 year old sleazebag out of the car with my high heels pushing quite aggressively against his ass, we swerved around people as if it were some kind of video game. Props to our cab driver for getting us home alive...and not killing anyone else on the way. Ha. Many more of these experiences to come, I'm sure. -Leron 2 comments|post comment

$405.69 [19 Dec 2009|09:45am] ehh_soso My wallet has become much thinner since I got here last Friday. I should really start saving now. NY, you have been good to me but when I move here...please do not eat my money like you have recently...(even though I secretly know you will.) It's funny that the men here have no shame in hidding on women no matter where they are. Yesterday I got gruesomely hid on while I was in the subway standing up to exit at my stop. My mother was right next to me and it was just so inappropriate. I literally took about 5 steps before another man decided to make some smug remark about my beauty and by the end of that 3 minutes, I was anything but flattered. Jan is going on a 9 day cruise starting today...and he probably wont talk to me the entire time like what happened last time he went on a cruise. Only that time, we were only 6 months into our relationship versus now. Blah. It's supposed to snow a lot today and tomorrow...I'm just going to go play in the snow. Yeah, that's what Ima gonna do. -Leron (ps) C'mon people, for the sake of my entertainment: http://www.formspring.me/leronleron 4 comments|post comment

Because I'm bored... [17 Dec 2009|03:50pm] ehh_soso Ask me anything! http://www.formspring.me/leronleron post comment

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